Happy Monday, Loves!
I think I've been doing a pretty good job of keeping a point of positivity and inspiration on this blog. But I always have wanted to make a point of talking about the negative situations because I know that there are more people out there that can relate to the bad times than we care to actually talk about.
So here goes.
Recently I've hit some kind of weird low. A low that really had me questioning who I was and why exactly I was on this earth. Surrounding these questions came a circle of negativity that affected EVERY aspect of my life. Things we're going well in the job sector, bills were pilling up, etc, etc. And the more bad things happened, both big and small, the more I spiraled into a pit of anxiety and depression.
It was worse this time than any other because I thought I was past this. Dealing with heavy depressed episodes, anxiety attacks, negative crowding thoughts. But it's funny because they really never go away. Unfortunately, when you grow and evolve, your mental illness grow and evolve with you.
It was a bad cycle for a day or two because I saw how I was acting and sabotaging my opportunities, my friendships, and just mucking up the atmospheric energy of the people around me... but I couldn't do anything to stop it.
BUT THANK GOD FOR GOOD HABITS.
Turns out, I DO know how to handle my mental illnesses. And even though they show themselves as I go through stages in my life, the same good habits and tactics are what is needed to fight them and beat them. Every. Single. Time.
I started making myself play videos games every time I felt stressed and anxious. And then, sometimes I felt better. Then I found that I had the mental capacity to start caring and supporting others. And it made me feel good. And then suddenly I had the courage to do Youtube again (youtube.com/user/abalicious53779 , shameless plug.) And that led to me being (re-)passionate about why I started in in the first place.
All of that to say, it starts with a good habit. Good habits are harder to implement, but I think that's because of the impact they have when they actually become a successful habit. And then suddenly you're a renewed version of yourself that's like "what depressive episode?"
The whole point of that story was to emphasize the importance of good habits. Identify the things that make you feel like the best 'you,' and make it a habit to do those things. So much so that you don't have to fight yourself to do them when you get down. Because we all get a little lost sometimes. You just gotta keep fighting.