It's Monday again!
I'm coming to ya'll with something a bit different today. And once again, it's going to be led with a personal testimony because the majority of the time, that's where my epiphanies come from.
I don't really think I understood the way how your mind can really affect the way I see things. Like physically, actually seeing things.
The biggest way this has shown up in my life is with my weight loss journey. I've noticed that with my ups and downs, and depressive episodes, I tend....to be a lot harsher on myself. And definitely a lot harsher about my appearance.
In a negative bout, I can look at myself and all I can see are things like how 'fat' my face is. How big my head is, how small and squinty my eyes get when I smile, how unruly my hair is, how big my nose is....I can honestly go on forever. And for those of you who know me, you're probably like.... Abby, WTF.
But in a positive mood, my head is naturally held higher. And for some reason my braids that fall past my shoulders heavily accentuate my SEXY jawline. How slender my neck looks, how my eyelashes compliment my eyes, how the outfit I'm wearing looks BOMB on me, stomach poking out and all.
It's really astounding and concerning for me because I can recall times where I've felt completely different about the exact same features, and it boils down to the one question: 'What else is my brain lying to me about?'
All in all, I think it's super important to be extremely mindful about the mindset you're in before you listen to the voices in your head. Never take the things you tell yourself seriously, that's your bad brain literally just throwing a tantrum about things that don't even exist. And just remember that it will pass, and all long as you do what you need to in order to get back into your right mind, those voices will never be right, and they will never win.