I took another break without really meaning too.
Not only from this blog, but from Youtube, from social media.. from self care, from eating right, exercising..
It's like... school ended, and the structure in my life fell apart.
When that happens, I guess I don't feel the need to really do anything. Whether it's eating healthy or even eating at all, to leaving my house to get some sort of exercise, to simpler things like washing my face and taking a shower.
I'm fully aware that these are depression symptoms, though I never imagined my depression to manifest itself in that manner. I am still fully interested in the things and activities I love, and I'm not mentally tired or sad. Despite that, it's seems like when I have no 'main' responsibilities,( school, work, etc. so it's like the discipline for the other surrounding tasks disappear as well, and I essentially become a couch potato.
I never really caught the pattern until now, and even thought I can't really pinpoint the cause or what it even is, I do know that I'm attempting to make some big changes in my life that require disciple to be in the forefront instead of a supporting cast. And now that I have identified the problem, I have nowhere but up to go from here.